about 4/5 years ago, the Holy Spirit revealed my love for drawing, sketching, doodle art etc, leading me to pursue graphic design. but life had other plans - the pandemic hit, and other challenges forced me to put it aside. i was hurt that my desire fell through, but i rarely shared my disappointment aloud. in private with the Lord, I shared my hope for Him to revive my passion one day. but regardless of the outcome, i knew i had to give it to Him. the outcome is in His hands after all.
a few days ago, during worship, i felt an urge in my spirit to pick up my sketchpad for the first time in four years. overwhelmed with joy, i wept. He examined my heart and gave me back something that I deeply desired. But this time, not for vanity, but to lift Him up.
everything in my life that I’ve had to put down or caused me pain /disappointment now points back to Him and His goodness and mercy over my life. i wonder how many of us bury our desires if they fall through? instead of taking them to the Father and asking Him to revive or revisit what was lost, but this time, let it be for His glory.
i think it’s easy for us to get discouraged and assume not right now means no because we are afraid of His rejection. when, in fact, He does desire to give us good things and the desires of our hearts(that may come with a refining process).
but how will you know what His answer is if you don’t first confess that there is a need/want for something that you did have to put down?
go back and ask again..
